I'm Already Torn

Well, today was a day of great happenings, both noticeable and others not. It was a day that was filled with good news, and it seemed like for the first time in a long, long while i might be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel, i might be able to balance all three weights which i now keep juggling throughout the air in front of me. In my right hand, perpetually moving from disheartening to inspiring, is my school life. It is the most important thing right now (mostly), and i try to keep the most attention on this weight. In my left i hold my home life, which has been smooth sailing for awhile now, with the few bumps and rocks along the way. The normal stuff. But in the final hand, the hand that i extend from my heart, i hold my social life.Although i place the least importance on this hand in my mind, it might be the most difficult to balance and keep up. This weight is heaviest, the one that can so easily fall out of whack with the littlest bit of a nudge in the wrong direction. For quite awhile, this hand was ignored, for there was little need for it.

But over the past year and a half, i have developed friendships that will last me to the end of my days. I have made many friends, some more highly regarded than others, but friends nonetheless. What with tight bondage of my cross country team and the great friends that have arisen from it, and the newly formed Cinco de Amigos, with whom i am deeply indebted to for so many things on so many levels.

But now, it seems as though the last component of these Trinity may finally have come to be realized. Although nothing definitive can be said, there is hope, and from hope springs possibility. And well, A Posse Ad Esse. It is the name of my blog, and it means a lot to me. In english, it means from possibility to actuality. Hopefully this can become true for me.

Today was great. Spanish was boring as usual, I aced Brazee's test, and Spooner's quiz (although it was slightly harder than i thought it would be). After a movie day in Gieger, i was walking down the hall towards Engineering when Timmy (Senior, on the Cross Country team and my 4X800 Meter team) ran over to me all excited and told me that our 4X800 team time was ranked fifth in the ENTIRE state. In class 2A, we were ranked 2nd. That wouldve been the highlight of my day, if not for what would unfold in fifth period. I was sitting there doing nothing (having finished all my work), and i was informed of some information that very much delighted me. I won't really come out and say it, but Sam you should probably get this. I learned that a ship that i thought had sailed long ago has returned to port and is once again ready to sail with new sails. All metaphors aside, this was momentous and troubling at the same time. Not only did it leave my excited, it left me somewhat pensive about the conflict this might present within myself.

Well, this post will now come to an end, leaving many of you blog readers befuddled and wanting more information. I know, i came be somewhat mysterious at times. Its just my way. I'm sorry. Well, im gonna wrap this up cause its getting late. Song today is Torn by Natalie Umbruglia.
http://www.mt.net.mk/mediacorner/mp3/Natalie Imbruglia - Torn.mp3

Goooooooooo dnight